I am mediocre.

I am full of lose tonight.  I am fairly certain that I used to be good at things.  I haven't a scrap of ambition left.  Anytime I feel it or get excited about something, it is immediately extinguished by a lack of finance, lack of mobility, or lack of confidence.  I can't spend 6+ hours driving to skate.  I can't travel.  I can't afford classes.

I can't follow through on anything, anyway, since I know it would be mediocre at best.  I envy people who seem to be good at everything.  Hell, I would like to be really good at just one thing.